i should write a story bout my life.bout how many heartbreaks i've had.bout how stupid i am.i HATE myself!completely hate myself.but it'll be stupid of me to kill myself over a guy.hes not worth it.but sumtimes i find no worth in living.wat do i get frm being able to live everyday?i get to cry.get to see ppl die.get to see ppl cry.get hurt.fail in everything i do.fall for shit so easily.

i hate myself.

half alive,i love it.

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...

And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.

I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight

dreams at the wrong time.lol

ah!yes!look at the post before this.im supposed to be studying anyway.i think its a way of punishment frm God.hehe.. neways i utterly abhor people who think the world revolves around them!n those who like touching you everytime.gosh!it gets annoying ok!dun freaggin touch me!but if i tell u..then things will change between us.well not like it hasnt already as much as i hate to admit.but seriously.stop touching me!im not ur freaggin gf!dun wanna be!

but actually i wanna post about valentines day.i just miss it.wish it was valentines.was looking through some pics n found hearts n roses n all that.just brought my mind to think of valentines.thats wat makes it so overrated.*rolls eyes* but yes its nice to have just one special day for the specialest person in ur life.:) of course it doesnt only have to be celebrated with ur boyfriend or galfriend.theres still mummy,daddy ur bros n sistas frm other mothers too!hehee..but nothing can beat the feeling as you watch him approach you from a distance..or as he holds you tight with the promise of never letting you go.




or the times when u watch this:


or this:
together.
but of course its not always a bed of roses.one of us will make mistakes..



n sometimes the problems won't have a chance to be solved and this results in a goodbye.. :(

n for some of us its so hard for us to forget that person though its been forever!




i shall leave now n seal it with a



happy valentines day!
xoxo.

i was gonna post a new thing but it ended up going missing cos i accidentally pressed the wrong thing n didnt even save it in my drafts b4 this!!!it was quite a good post i should say!omgomg!!am i destined to write/post sucky shit?!

bang balls n shisha

today went to college n everything was jz normal.n during class i was like talking to lee wen throughout the whole thing.hehehe.. then i got home bout 6.30 n received a call.guess who its frm..
frm nick mok.asking me if i wanna join them (his sis, daren kum n nikolas) go shisha or not.so i was like ok la.hahaah..then we went to 15 lepak in AC like lazy bums waited for nick n his sis to finish dinner n they played cho tai ti.so neways after their dinner, we went upstairs to bang some balls.we played 3 games n all 3 also nick mok n daren kena tapau kao kao!hahah..it just happen to be nik n my day.;) afta dat we went to tanjung in 14 to shisha.waited there for awhile then decided to leave. as we were leaving i asked a guy.."shisha hari ini tada buka ah?"hahaah...see my bm so chun.the fella was like .."hari ini shisha tak buka la."i was like daym!haha..so we went to ss13.sat there and talk bout nonsense n FINALLY!!!the long awaited shisha had arrived!!we took apple grape mint flavor.its good.nick mok n his sister shisha pretty well for first timers.n so yea.thats bout it for today.came back n im just so tired.eating my cheesecake.yummy!:D

will update again soon ppl!when im not too lazy la.hehe..
xoxo